When we’re younger our minds start to protect us before we know how to. I mentally guarded myself from the world, even family. I needed these invisible bars around me. The world seemed scary and harsh; family felt trite; friendship felt fleeting; love difficult.
Without knowing it, I needed the ability to define the world around me, and who I am for myself. However, somewhere along the way I forgot about the barriers I once put up. Years later as I approach my 23rd birthday, it’s hard to invite people closer when I naturally guard myself and second guess connections, as well as experiences.
When I was in high school, the friendship and kindness of once strangers is what allowed me to not be as shut off to my surroundings. Now I’m completing the internal work to open myself back up to all the possibilities kept at some distance, whether it be pain, love or success in various forms. I’m learning to just embrace it all. As the years progress, I continuously learn to honor who I am and let that guide me. Through honoring who I am the world feels more gentle. Family and love seem more genuine and attainable.
Courage shows up in various ways. It’s not always about being this strong, independent person. Strength comes from within, but also my biggest enemy can mentally come from within.
When I stand strong within myself and open my heart and soul to the opportunities, I’m happier.I’m not alone, and I don’t have to be. I needed my journey to take its earlier path, but now we’re taking a turn for the better.