Booty Call – Part Two

The last part to Booty Call – Part One

He says, “She likes me but?” I say no but.

He asks me who I am texting and I lie.

We change the subject. I’m texting again, and he asks me whom I’m texting. I say her name and he wants to see my phone. I say no and admit that “She likes you but she didn’t like certain comments you made.”

We dive into discussion. Things turn defensive on both ends but we make progress and see the light. However he wonders why my friends are so defensive of me as I put it. This seems clear to me. We move on soon after.

He sits at my computer and talks about a variety of things. His exes and getting hit on and more. I find myself not wanting to have this discussion. Somehow we get onto the topic of why my friends are defensive of me and talking about my friends leads to me talking about my family and I end up crying in the middle of this whole experience. I feel embarrassed to be crying in front of him. I feel ridiculous for crying in front of him. I’m upset at myself for crying in front of him. I stop talking. There is a pause. He is taking it all in. I’m the vulnerable one.

We talk about something light. There is a pause. I ask him what he thinks about me. He goes on about that being a broad, general question. I tell him to tell me what he would say if someone asked about me. He says he can’t. He asks me, “What would you say.”

I tell him and he rebuttals those are all things he’s told me before about himself. I defend myself and elaborate. “So those are all things you may have told me, but they are also things I would’ve figured out by now anyway. I’m very observant and aware of people when I first meet them.”

There is a pause in conversation He asks me what I’m thinking and I say nothing. We have a pause. A lot has been said tonight.

He asks me what I’m thinking again. I decide to be honest.

“I’m confused.”

“Why are you confused?”

I start talking but I feel like I’m not making sense to myself. I start over. “A week ago my feelings outweighed any friendship we had” but now things are different in a few days. I explain that if this were a spectrum I’m in the middle of the feelings and the friendship.

There is a pause as he takes it all in. I look at him. I don’t want to change the conversation. It doesn’t seem like he will say anything so I ask, “What do you think about what I just said?”

He pauses and says how based on the conversation has went tonight, he doesn’t think he should reply now.

There is a silence.

He says I think I should go. A beat passes, and I say yeah you probably should.

He begins to walk out the door and as I walk behind him I wonder if he will hug me. He doesn’t turn back for a hug as he walks out and says goodbye.

It’s a sign as I lock the door behind him.

Were these emotional booty calls?

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Note from the writer:

2013 will involve some big changes to this blog and my life. While staying true to the initial vision for this blog, you will definitely see more diversity in posts. Stay tuned for an upcoming announcement!

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I hope you enjoyed this post! Feel free to comment, tweet me (@JarrydK).

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