Tag Archives: fear

Three Doors

I feel like I was standing in a room representing my future. There were three doors each representing progress with someone. Guys, or well men for all intents and purposes, stand behind them all. Behind the first was the ever so popular one from my post “He Has a Crush on You.” I could pull open […]

Save Me

I don’t want to be hurt. I really don’t want to be hurt. I know no one wants to be hurt, but I really don’t want to give a guy the power to hurt me. I don’t want anyone to hurt me. It’s taken me too long to make it to this point and I don’t want […]

I Heard You Were a Wild One!

Sometimes I’m lonely. I think how nice it would be to have a guy to cuddle with. But at what cost? A guy we can just sit together and talk about random, small moments of our day. It could lead to more. “I’m Jarryd and I’m a virgin.” “Hi, Jarryd!” “I’ve just started to be comfortable […]

Be a Survivor, Not a Victim

Don’t be a victim. Be a survivor. A survivor has strength, determination, hope. A victim is defeated. A survivor overcomes. We are masters of our fate. We deserve to be happy so we don’t accept treatment we don’t deserve. These are our lives. We must do what we want with them. We can’t be shackled to the chains of our […]

He Has a Crush on You

As time unravels for me to know you more, I come to like what I see on the outside and especially on the inside even more. The validity of this crush is unsubstantiated. Your sexuality is still unproven but I’m sure it works in my favor. Tell me. Just me. That’s all I need. While […]

Encounter

My phone lies by me as I wait. Will the green light blink indicating I somehow missed a call or text in the one second I took to get water? Will my desk harshly vibrate saying this is the moment I’ve been waiting for? I truly despise waiting. When I have a date or time […]

My Admission to Myself

My admission to myself is that I feel constantly lost in this college world. Right now it’s almost 1 a.m. and I sit outside in the cold listening to Adele. I wonder what I am really doing with my life and I have so many fears. I fear getting hurt by guys. I miss having […]

Explore All Depths

We really don’t realize how many amazing opportunities and experiences are out there until we are already experiencing them or someone else shares their experiences. Ultimately, we are our own wall from lack of imagination, fear of embarrassment, or lack of belief in ourselves. This past week I had this revelation and realized how I need to […]